• THE SHIELD

" Buck up" by: Chantel Amissah

Updated: Jan 22, 2019



Just release,

unclench,

let go,

clear it out.


But don't cry.

No emotion.

Buck up.


Maybe it won't last. Only temporary.

Keep that in mind.


They say it's darkest before the dawn,

but it's different

feels like

it'll be dark

forever.


No passion,

no ambition,

means no future.


Calm down -

you're overthinking - again. You'll lose your mind.


Are my ways in need of change?

Is this my rude

awakening?


It feels like a never ending cycle

of emotions

that consume me.


You're

nowhere near perfect,

not your body,

heart,

soul,

mind.


You say,

You do,

all the wrong things

at the wrong time.


Not perfectly imperfect,

just imperfect.


Am I right?


Feelings of inadequacy

crippling,

inundating,

all consuming,

can't breathe - get a word in - -


Are you listening!

Man, I feel voiceless.

I feel, I feel, I feel.


Am I just

dramatic, angsty ?


Will my patience ever pay off?

Will I ever achieve success?


Is my success proving you wrong?


It's hard to put drive,

ambition,

into something one is not doing

solely for one's self.


I’m being pulled,

pulled in so many ways. I'm going to explode, count…1,2,3,4,5… doesn't work!

6, 7, 8, 9 ... I'm in a dark tunnel - no way out - no light - at the end - 10...

Hope - are you there? Light.

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